Saturday 7 February 2015

Cuz' Imma Fighter

Bismillah ;')



Im graduating this sem, from foundation centre.
subject pun banyak. including this one subject I need to repeat - Introduction to Law. 23 credit hrs.

Stress. terutamanya dengan project. Group projects, Individual projects.
haha aku perasan this one thing, I easily get stressed with group projects :'(
Maybe I cant received commands ?
Maybe I was born to lead? lol what a statement. even I never be a leader. setakat leader utk pertunjukan dan sports masa sekolah dulu baik tak yah.
It pissed me off :'( I get sad easily. I feel like I dont contribute much.

Ok,sabar :)

whocare

Im going to pursue my study in the main campus this September.

Thats it.

gonna give all my heart to this freaking thing.

Cuz Imma Fighter.
idgf to those ridiculous thing. little problems.

Easy. FIGHT !

Thursday 25 December 2014

Aku tidaklah sebegitu

Assalamualaikum..
Bismillah..

Aku tidaklah cukup warak atau alim,
tidaklah bertahajjud tiap malam,
tidak juga menjaga solat di awal waktu,
tidak juga menjaga yang sunat,
tidak menjaga hubungan sesama manusia,
tidak mampu bercakap penuh hikmah,
tidak cukup sempurna menjaga hubungan dengan Allah, 
tidak semaksima berguna kepada ummah,
tidak menuntut ilmu sepenuhnya,
tidak menjadi anak yang soleh,
tidak menjadi teman yang berguna,
tidak menjadi murid yang tumpu,
tidak itu dan ini..

Tapi aku yakin, 
aku tidaklah sebegitu selamanya.

Belum.

Atau dengan kata lainnya masih memperbaiki diri. 

Aku tidak sebegitu, kerna aku masih memperbaiki.
Aku masih memperbaiki diri. Fahami aku.
Aku masih belajar,
Membimbing diri ku untuk menjadi 'begitu'

Yang ku tahu, 'itu' semua persediaan. 
Persediaan dan persiapan.
Kerna kematian,
bukan mainan,

Aku tidaklah sebegitu,
Tapi aku rindu untuk menemuiNya, Sang Pencipta,

Aku tidaklah sebegitu,
tapi aku cemburu,
Pada pemuda,
 menemuiNya di awal usia,
Peribadinya elok, ilmunya tinggi,
Mereka pergi meninggalkan dunia,
penuh fana, yang hanya sementara, tiada apa.

Sejenak aku berfikir,
Andai aku dijemputNya seawal itu,
di usia INI
Cukupkah bekalan ku?

Atau,
Adakah hidupku masih panjang?


Cuma ini pinta ku,

Aku sedang berusaha,
Untuk jadi yang terbaik,

Andai ada khilaf,
Maafkanlah,
Tegur-tegurlah.

Hidup penuh onar. Biasalah ;)

Aku yakin,
Ya Rahmaan, Ya Rahiim,
Maha Pemurah,  Maha Penyayang.
Kau mengujiku,
Kau sayang padaku.
Juga pada hamba2 Mu.


;)




Saturday 15 November 2014

something to say, something to see.

Assalmualaikum, Bismillah ;)

When I first came to cfs. There's no excitement in me. Even I packed AAALL my things on the night before the registration day. So, imagine the hard feelings, all in one. I don't know what I was thinking., since I really wanted to study in INTEC. hehe. By the way, The facilities seem cannot be used. The shower without the 'kepala'. ah, banyak lagi lah. malas nak cerita. But never mind, it was all passed now.

After a few months, I started to accept that I am studying in the uia ~ tak payah nak banyak songeh sangat. something like that. There's more poor people outside there living worst than I am. I should be grateful.

Now, I totally living my life in CFS, IIUM PJ ;)

Actually, there's many things to do in the campus instead at home. hehe.
Even in the cfs, solat ku terjaga. Tiap waktu dengar azan.
At home, we can't hear azan at all ! seriously. So, we just guessing whether dah masuk waktu or not. Means, kalau dah 4;30 sah2 la dah Asar. or just tengok apps waktu solat.
At my hostel, I heard azan subuh and terkejut like nyawa macam dah nak dicabut dah. haa.. tak bangun jugak tak tahu la kann ;'D
In the campus, I join the Taekwondo Club, ^,^
Our training session is on Monday and Wednesday night.
At least, there is something to do.
Then, me and my friend jog on Monday and Wednesday in the morning for 20 minutes, around the campus or twice around the field. We just started ;) Badan Cergas ! Otak Cerdas ! ;'D isn't it ?


Jyeahh ~! ;)

Can't wait to do my BEST ^,^

Jazakallahu Khairan Katheera ;)



Thursday 13 November 2014

Semester 2

Assalamualaikum.
Bismillah..

Semester 2 just started.
I was so excited to start this semester.
I have set my new azam and goals for this sem, to discipline myself, come early to class.. focus more in the class, do not sleep. and many more :* muah!

In the previous semester, I was kinda shocked. konon. Tak ready with the learning styles and stuff. because of that, I don't really pay attention in class, get bored easily, didn't jot down any notes! silly me. The result, my cgpa went really bad. I need to repeat a paper. So I decided to extend my study in cfs for two months next year. I want to add and drops few subjects to make it easy to score. Pray for me. ;)

Second is to improve my ibaadah. the wajib and sunat. In the campus.. I feel easy to jaga my solat fardhu, to make sure myself solat di awal waktu ;) Alhamdulillah. But at home, I need to practise more. Cuz there's tv, fast internet connection, iPad, laptops, air conditioner, comfy beds comforter. haha >.<

Basically, one of my targets now is to get DEAN's LIST. no matter what.
Turkiye Burslari (turkiye govn shcolarship) is my GOALS for now ;')
The applications are twice a year.

Pray for me.
Jazakallahu khairan katheera for reading ;)